life | June 27, 2012
The Girl I Once Was is a series of blog posts compiled from real-life journal entries from my teenage years. At 13, my insecurity turned efforts to lose a “few pounds” into obsessive calorie restriction/over-exercising. Soon after, food allergies I experienced as a child returned. My digestive system reacted negatively to almost every kind of food and a functioning body felt like an unreachable dream. After years of trips to the naturopath attempting to follow various elimination diets, I was sick of being sick and tired — trapped in a body I refused to love. My rapid weight loss caused hormonal imbalances, leading to a draining season of anxiety coupled with the loss of my menstrual cycle for a year.
life | June 25, 2012
my body can run 21 kilometres.
i have photo evidence and a medal to prove it.
i am EXCITED today.
when i crossed the finish line at 9:50am sunday, someone asked, how do you feel!? YOU DID IT. yeah! i did. it was fun. i was smiling. i’m a thinker, not a feeler — most emotion comes after big events in my life. whether excitement, grief, joy, sadness — i feel it after i’ve thought and written about it. i take a long time to process thoughts into emotion. that being said, my excitement has been growing every hour since 9:50am yesterday.